Jays testimony

[jayson]

SO there is alot to say i guess...

I just became a christian and its hard right now...


heres my story.

my dad died when i was 6 my step dad died when i was 7 (my mother never seemed to sad about the death of my father), my mom was a drug addict, drank to much and smoked a little WAY too much.

I got adopted when i was 9 and moved to canada, but life back home were really taugh on my sister and myself.

When i was 12 i started hanging out with the wrong crowed and one thing led to another and i ended up in juvie for 2 months. Wheni got out i still hung out with my "buds" and we started stealing from everyone we knew.

When i turned 13 i got into drugs (not a lot but enough of it to keep going for a while)

By the time i got into high school i was heavily into drugs and i just couldnt wait to skip school to get my next fix. I started to go into Juvie about 5 timesa year and it never really stopped me from doing anything stupid that i was...

when i turned 15 i got into drinking drugs smoking... you name it.... lots of parties... i really put alot on my adopted parents... i made them go through a lo!!!
When i turned 16 i was actually in Juvie for my birthday... but right when i got out i found a really nice girl she was a bit younger (13) and i settled down with her but i was still in and out of juvie and i started to harded into the drugs and stuff... she didnt know who i became, my rents didnt know nor did the person who loved me most ( my sister) I also announced to my parents that by the time i was 19 i wanted a kid at this time.

When i turned 18 ( my gf was 15) she told me that we were going to have a kid.

I turned 19 and on July 27th i had a baby girl. I didnt really ever see her when she was born, but did she ever loo like me!! When the new year came i was in jail for 20 charges against me and i spent my birthday in jail and missed my daughters first birthday and i regret all of this.

So thats my story...
I still have not been able to see my daughter yet cause of the crap i put my ex through....

To add on quickly im not into drugs or drinking, or smoking as a matter of fact im not into any of that any more, that life is slowly creeping away

[Kelly]

Wow Jay! Thanks so much for sharing....

Are you a fan of Seventh Day Slumber by chance? One thing they "preach" a lot is to just take things one step at a time. Just take today and focus on doing the right thing today. Then when tomorrow comes, start over again....focus on that ONE day, doing the right thing, staying away from the bad things....you'll find in time that it will get easier!

And stay in the Word and pray! Pray, pray pray!!! Talk to God...tell him your concerns....give it all to Him...he'll fix it.

And just keep in mind, no one ever said being a Christian was easy! It's hard work, but so worth it! God bless you for taking that first step! :)

[LauraA]

Hi Jay,

Thank you for sharing your story with us. It sounds like you've been down a rough road. It's awesome that you are changing your life for the better. Jesus is the one who will give you the strength to do what is right. Ask Him for help often, talk to Him as you would your best friend. (He wants to be your best friend.) He will pick you up and hold you tight, but you have to allow Him to. When you feel weak in any area, start praying. Get into the Word and start memorizing Scriptures.

Hebrews 4:16
Let us therefore come boldly unto the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy, and find grace to help in time of need.

Are you attending a church anywhere? It would be good to ask your pastor if there is anyone willing to mentor you. Someone you can talk to and be accountable to. It can really help. But above all, pray and read the Bible.

[fireproof]

Thanks for that J. Once we get the brotherhood thread locked to girls we'll have the 'male struggle' thread back up and running where we can talk about all kinds of things that we find tough. Until then try and avoid getting yourself into situations you can slip up at. I also find putting scriptures notes on places you see every day is a good encouragement, like your pc monitor, your mirror your car dash etc etc.

[jayson]

here's some sweet news about that....

my wife is just great and before we got married on june 3rd i told her when i proposed to her last year what all my struggles are and were so there is always an open discussion about everything and Since that day she really upped it and my life has just been soo much better and really awesome now becuase shes really helping and supporting me and just knowing what i went through to get were i am today and knowing what she went throw through has really helped our relationship together as a couple and our family life cus when i found out that i was going to be having a kid almost two years ago i thought i would never be good enough for the child cus my rent werent good enough for me and thats y did the things i did and then i really realized when my daughter was born that fatherhood really comes from gods help in guiding you through all the times...

i could tell soo many stories about how i have been getting encouragement, help from my wife and just everything in life but it would be way too long!!!

God bless and i cant wait for the wall to be set up!

[LauraA]

Praise God! Your wife sounds like a treasure. Just remember that the Lord set it up for you to be a team. Where one is weak, the other can be strong and visa versa. You can work together with the Lord in the center to be a strong Christian family that many will look up to and use as a role model. You can make such a difference in people's lives.

Don't know why I was impressed to say that, but out it came. :)

God Bless You~
Laura

[krazyyouth]

Hey very nice Jay and glad that everything is working out for you