krazyyouth
08-13-2008, 01:40 PM
Well someone of y'all read my post and you get to know me and how i am kinda. The one person that i can trust with all my heart and is very kind and i think they care about me.
This is when it all had started, My Sophomore year of high school i was sitting in my IPC (Physics and Chemistry together) I got my grade in that class and i just had burst in tears because i was barely passing and that and i was failing geometry. So I was stressing out and that and this was when i was not really strong in my faith. Well i was thinking "am I going to pass these two classes?" So i had got home and my mom was asking what was wrong with me and i said "Well i might not pass math and IPC!" and then she asked "Nicole how long has the school been having the night tutorials ?" I said " Ummm since the being of the school year" She asked me if i wanted to go to them, so i went. The teacher that was there he was running late and all this was at like 6 at night 2 weeks before finales or 3 i don't remember. i asked him if he was any good with IPC and Geometry. He said Ipc maybe as long as i have a book so i had a book and he helped me out. SO i started going every day that they had them Monday, Tuesday, and Thursday. I passed IPC on my own. But my stupid math teacher passed me and i didn't even understand half the stuff.
Then the new semester started and my mom had made me go so yeah i went and i started passing because i went and i was able to do my homework this is Mr.Guikema helping me out and he made thing easier for me and that. I was so happy that i was doing well in my classes. The end of the year came i was understanding things and I failed my TAKS test so yeah I was disappointed.So i had to take my math finale. My Teacher for math was an idiot again, I'm don't know why, but I made a 58 on my math finale and I needed a 70 to pass strangely i passed. Gee I wonder I wanted to tell Mr.Guikema but i couldn't he was already gone.
The New year began, My Junior year half way done I was saying to myself. I was talking to one of the teacher who know me because we went to the same church together and he knows my whole family so i was telling him what i have been up to told him what happened over the summer with the pastor at the church i use to go to and that and told him that I am getting baptized one September 9th, We walked into the building were one and very many coping machines so me and him talked and i saw him, Mr.Guikema! So I went up to were he was and i told him what was going on and that and, I told him that I was going be to baptized on the 9th and he said good and he asked me how been and all and I said good. The bell rang and I needed to leave but I just wanted to let him know how things were going for me and all.
Well later one in th month they started up the night tutorials again so I went every night that i had homework or if i had no clue what was going on and Guikema told me he was very proud of me because my work ethic had improved i have him check ad make sure I'm doing things right and that it and that made him proud of me.I was understanding my math a lot better than ever i was doing very well on my homework but for some odd reason i was not passing my test. I know why, I knew the stuff but i knew it to well and i rushed through the test to i could prove that i was smart and that. Well one test i made like an 80 something on and i wanted to tell Guikema but lucky enough he was talking to my teacher, and i passed ! Well the semester finale came up and I wanted to pass with an A or even a B well i went to the night tutorials and i had made 3 copies of my math review so i could understand all of it and pass! I did one by myself and had Guikema check it to make sure i was doing things right and, I was so happy that could he did that. I worked on the one by myself and I study the one so i could ask question on it. So when my test day had came I took the finale and i took my time and i checked it and checked it to make sure i was right and that i was so confident that i passed but I, saw him mark more than 5 wrong so i knew i failed i Made a 60 on it but still i was hurt so I told Guikema that i failed my finale and it hurt me and this is what he said to me "Nicole did you try your best? did you prepare? that is all one can ever ask of you...I think you did both of those. In the long run the grade will fade away-how you react and try to become a better person because of it does not" That to me has worked on everything , I have learned that dose help not to really react to it because it JUST A GRADE, thats the same with my TAKS if i passed i pass it i fail i fail. He will be proud of me not matter what the outcome is. SO yes i have listen to him a lot and after that i have talked to him a lot more than ever.I go to him when I'm not having a great day and that i even go to him when i have a good day. I went to him to tell him about the whole thing about C.Arts class and how much i getting made fun of and that. They made fun of me for breaking the slicer they made fun of all kinds of things and yes it had hurt me so badly and i went to him and he made everything so much better for me. I brought him all kinds of things for him helping me out like cheesecake and that sweet treats like banana pudding. He is one of the very few people that will talk to me. He will talk with me if I'm having a bad day. There was one time that i was having a horrible day and everyone in every class were being big jerks i could use a different word but i won't and i was bout to burst into tears. It was that bad for me i just wanted to run away from all of that and i couldn't i was in school but during my lunch period. I went to talk to Guikema and what he was saying made me cry it was something i needed to hear from someone that would listen to me or even talk with him. He said that i really dint need to have them get to me and i just need to brush it off and all. I needed to talk to the teacher,but i didn't. The the class was going on a filed trip and I really didn't want to go because of the fact i was being picked on and that and I really didn't want to go for what 5 hours being made fun of. So I went to asked Guikema and I was telling him that the class was going on a field trip and that i really didn't want to go because i was so sick and tried of being made fun of for 2 hours every day. He said "Nicole do you really want to have them boss you around and tell you want to do because by you not going your letting them WIN, and you don't want to do that do you" I said "No,but i just am so sick in tried of it." so i didn't go that was stupid of me i know. It got worse and worse as the year went on and on and on. I was so tempted to drop the class next year, i went to talk to Guikema and i asked him "Hey Guikema i was thinking should i drop the class next year because of what all is happing, I don't really have a joy anymore to cook because they brought me down so low" and Guikema told me " Nicole if i was in your shoes i would take the class again and just prove that you can stick up for you and that." so its like these kids are evil and its like saint trying to bring me down. So this year i am going to stick up for my self and if that meas i get beaten up i didn't let them win! But i hope i don't get beaten up,
So as my Senior year is about to Begin i just hope me and Guikema can have our talks and he can help me out and bring me up when I'm down. Like a friend will do, for some odd reason, it feels like my 10th grade year God had pointed me to Mr.Guikema, to get me into his music and get the message across and i had really liked it and that summer i had turned my life around to God and all and able to talk to Guikema an i am pretty sure that God wanted him in my life so I could get stronger in my faith.
Guikema is one person that i can trust and he is able to help me with all my problems because i cant call to Brent or someone that i can talk to at school, but i do hope that Guikema will still be part of my Life
Mods. If you have to delete or lock it its OK i just wanted to share something that is very important to me.
This is when it all had started, My Sophomore year of high school i was sitting in my IPC (Physics and Chemistry together) I got my grade in that class and i just had burst in tears because i was barely passing and that and i was failing geometry. So I was stressing out and that and this was when i was not really strong in my faith. Well i was thinking "am I going to pass these two classes?" So i had got home and my mom was asking what was wrong with me and i said "Well i might not pass math and IPC!" and then she asked "Nicole how long has the school been having the night tutorials ?" I said " Ummm since the being of the school year" She asked me if i wanted to go to them, so i went. The teacher that was there he was running late and all this was at like 6 at night 2 weeks before finales or 3 i don't remember. i asked him if he was any good with IPC and Geometry. He said Ipc maybe as long as i have a book so i had a book and he helped me out. SO i started going every day that they had them Monday, Tuesday, and Thursday. I passed IPC on my own. But my stupid math teacher passed me and i didn't even understand half the stuff.
Then the new semester started and my mom had made me go so yeah i went and i started passing because i went and i was able to do my homework this is Mr.Guikema helping me out and he made thing easier for me and that. I was so happy that i was doing well in my classes. The end of the year came i was understanding things and I failed my TAKS test so yeah I was disappointed.So i had to take my math finale. My Teacher for math was an idiot again, I'm don't know why, but I made a 58 on my math finale and I needed a 70 to pass strangely i passed. Gee I wonder I wanted to tell Mr.Guikema but i couldn't he was already gone.
The New year began, My Junior year half way done I was saying to myself. I was talking to one of the teacher who know me because we went to the same church together and he knows my whole family so i was telling him what i have been up to told him what happened over the summer with the pastor at the church i use to go to and that and told him that I am getting baptized one September 9th, We walked into the building were one and very many coping machines so me and him talked and i saw him, Mr.Guikema! So I went up to were he was and i told him what was going on and that and, I told him that I was going be to baptized on the 9th and he said good and he asked me how been and all and I said good. The bell rang and I needed to leave but I just wanted to let him know how things were going for me and all.
Well later one in th month they started up the night tutorials again so I went every night that i had homework or if i had no clue what was going on and Guikema told me he was very proud of me because my work ethic had improved i have him check ad make sure I'm doing things right and that it and that made him proud of me.I was understanding my math a lot better than ever i was doing very well on my homework but for some odd reason i was not passing my test. I know why, I knew the stuff but i knew it to well and i rushed through the test to i could prove that i was smart and that. Well one test i made like an 80 something on and i wanted to tell Guikema but lucky enough he was talking to my teacher, and i passed ! Well the semester finale came up and I wanted to pass with an A or even a B well i went to the night tutorials and i had made 3 copies of my math review so i could understand all of it and pass! I did one by myself and had Guikema check it to make sure i was doing things right and, I was so happy that could he did that. I worked on the one by myself and I study the one so i could ask question on it. So when my test day had came I took the finale and i took my time and i checked it and checked it to make sure i was right and that i was so confident that i passed but I, saw him mark more than 5 wrong so i knew i failed i Made a 60 on it but still i was hurt so I told Guikema that i failed my finale and it hurt me and this is what he said to me "Nicole did you try your best? did you prepare? that is all one can ever ask of you...I think you did both of those. In the long run the grade will fade away-how you react and try to become a better person because of it does not" That to me has worked on everything , I have learned that dose help not to really react to it because it JUST A GRADE, thats the same with my TAKS if i passed i pass it i fail i fail. He will be proud of me not matter what the outcome is. SO yes i have listen to him a lot and after that i have talked to him a lot more than ever.I go to him when I'm not having a great day and that i even go to him when i have a good day. I went to him to tell him about the whole thing about C.Arts class and how much i getting made fun of and that. They made fun of me for breaking the slicer they made fun of all kinds of things and yes it had hurt me so badly and i went to him and he made everything so much better for me. I brought him all kinds of things for him helping me out like cheesecake and that sweet treats like banana pudding. He is one of the very few people that will talk to me. He will talk with me if I'm having a bad day. There was one time that i was having a horrible day and everyone in every class were being big jerks i could use a different word but i won't and i was bout to burst into tears. It was that bad for me i just wanted to run away from all of that and i couldn't i was in school but during my lunch period. I went to talk to Guikema and what he was saying made me cry it was something i needed to hear from someone that would listen to me or even talk with him. He said that i really dint need to have them get to me and i just need to brush it off and all. I needed to talk to the teacher,but i didn't. The the class was going on a filed trip and I really didn't want to go because of the fact i was being picked on and that and I really didn't want to go for what 5 hours being made fun of. So I went to asked Guikema and I was telling him that the class was going on a field trip and that i really didn't want to go because i was so sick and tried of being made fun of for 2 hours every day. He said "Nicole do you really want to have them boss you around and tell you want to do because by you not going your letting them WIN, and you don't want to do that do you" I said "No,but i just am so sick in tried of it." so i didn't go that was stupid of me i know. It got worse and worse as the year went on and on and on. I was so tempted to drop the class next year, i went to talk to Guikema and i asked him "Hey Guikema i was thinking should i drop the class next year because of what all is happing, I don't really have a joy anymore to cook because they brought me down so low" and Guikema told me " Nicole if i was in your shoes i would take the class again and just prove that you can stick up for you and that." so its like these kids are evil and its like saint trying to bring me down. So this year i am going to stick up for my self and if that meas i get beaten up i didn't let them win! But i hope i don't get beaten up,
So as my Senior year is about to Begin i just hope me and Guikema can have our talks and he can help me out and bring me up when I'm down. Like a friend will do, for some odd reason, it feels like my 10th grade year God had pointed me to Mr.Guikema, to get me into his music and get the message across and i had really liked it and that summer i had turned my life around to God and all and able to talk to Guikema an i am pretty sure that God wanted him in my life so I could get stronger in my faith.
Guikema is one person that i can trust and he is able to help me with all my problems because i cant call to Brent or someone that i can talk to at school, but i do hope that Guikema will still be part of my Life
Mods. If you have to delete or lock it its OK i just wanted to share something that is very important to me.