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08-21-2008, 12:51 PM
Hey guys,
Had kind of a rough past few days. Been stranded here at the Stay Lodge and unable to drive or go anywhere. Ther eseems to be somethign wrong with my car. I had it checked out when the troubel started in June by Precision Tune and I have 110% trust in the man who checked it out. A Christian and the owner of the franchise. Supervised the testing and checking out of the prob himself. Wouldnt hear of charging me for it. Seems the alternator and battery are fine but it may be a problem with the starter. If i leave it parked for more than a day, leave the IPOD chargign without the car running or don't actually turn my automatic headlights off manually with the switch then the car will not start. This has been time tested since June. As long as I start the car and drive it a littl edaily...no prob. Anyway, I have had to leave it parked since Monday night because my gas is so low and I don't have money for gas. I have been gettign with friends slipping me a couple of dollars for a gallon or two and just using it responsibly. Also, I have sold my music cds and other things between pawn shops and hastings enterntainment store to help not be a burden.
Anyway, I have been sending out emails to the church email and havent gotten a reply to my SOS. The car won't start and well, I need someone to come here with a gas can and jumper cables. Yet other needs, emails and prayer requests have been sent out through the church network with no problem. This isnt the first time...three other prayer request/needs have been ignored/mysteriously lost and not sent out. I get strange musical sing song talk from one lady who is in charge of it and she tries to tell me that maybe I thought I emailed it but didnt...then promises she will look for it later and quickly walks away. The wierd thing was that with one of my "lost e-mails" no one had seen it and didnt know what i was talking about...and quickly brushed me off saying they would love to listen to my prayer need but they are really busy with important things...revival things..."Kingdom work" and I am "dismissed". Yet on the same night this incident happened, the pastor while walkign around and making small talk stopped when i got hsi attention and he asked about the specific things i had listed in my email...not really listening to my news about how things turned out and smiled and walked away. I think my emails are being controled and deleted which isnt fair. But finally this time I re-sent the email last night and forwarded a copy of it to a friend asking him to email it for me to the church as well...not telling him about my concerns but instead just maming an excuse and saying I wanted to make sure it got there in case my emails were accidently going to spam. Guess what? The pastor just emailed me insisting I call him. Fake nice and wantign to knwo what was wrong. No jokes or misinterpretations about the fake niceness. The sad thign is...he wasn't even listening. He was concerned about whether or not I had food in the room and had everythign I needed. Also said that he couldnt guarantee anything but woudl try to see if someone could help me get to the store today and maybe get me to church. But expalined that I may have to be stranded a few more days or another week or so because the church couldn't guarantee or be responsible for my car troubles and repairs. he kept repeating this no matter how I worded it. car repair was all he could think about. I simply stated if some oen were to bring a gas can with a little gas and jump me off that it would get the car runnign again and with a little gas help...maybe filling up my car once (i havent known a full tank since early June) or even halfway, that i shoudl be fine as long as I can keep it started and maybe make a little trip to the store or a quick little drive around the motel area. I told him the car troubles could be lived with for now and woudl have to wait until I managed to bring a few paychecks in. The repair and money isnt the problem anyway. Once again, I got like stutterign confusion and silence for a moment liek he didnt understand. And then it was repeated that I would have to remain stranded...that maybe someone could help me get food for the room and maybe pick me up for church...but he couldnt guarantee anything. The church is just less than 3 minutes down the road from the motel and we are having so far 75 days of non-stop revival since june. Is it me or are people wierd in my church? Or am I maybe not being listened to or considered "confused" you know being a "wheelchair" and all...so that peopel dismiss what I say and think for me? Or are they just so "cult conditioned" they are slightly whacked and can't understand common things fo the real world?:) *shudders as church people smile and blink...gazing ahead with wierd glassy looks in their eyes*(not joking about this)
Update: Uh-oh, someone emailed me asking if I had water to drink here at the motel...and if I had power here at the motel. Yes, they said the word motel in their question....*sighs*
Had kind of a rough past few days. Been stranded here at the Stay Lodge and unable to drive or go anywhere. Ther eseems to be somethign wrong with my car. I had it checked out when the troubel started in June by Precision Tune and I have 110% trust in the man who checked it out. A Christian and the owner of the franchise. Supervised the testing and checking out of the prob himself. Wouldnt hear of charging me for it. Seems the alternator and battery are fine but it may be a problem with the starter. If i leave it parked for more than a day, leave the IPOD chargign without the car running or don't actually turn my automatic headlights off manually with the switch then the car will not start. This has been time tested since June. As long as I start the car and drive it a littl edaily...no prob. Anyway, I have had to leave it parked since Monday night because my gas is so low and I don't have money for gas. I have been gettign with friends slipping me a couple of dollars for a gallon or two and just using it responsibly. Also, I have sold my music cds and other things between pawn shops and hastings enterntainment store to help not be a burden.
Anyway, I have been sending out emails to the church email and havent gotten a reply to my SOS. The car won't start and well, I need someone to come here with a gas can and jumper cables. Yet other needs, emails and prayer requests have been sent out through the church network with no problem. This isnt the first time...three other prayer request/needs have been ignored/mysteriously lost and not sent out. I get strange musical sing song talk from one lady who is in charge of it and she tries to tell me that maybe I thought I emailed it but didnt...then promises she will look for it later and quickly walks away. The wierd thing was that with one of my "lost e-mails" no one had seen it and didnt know what i was talking about...and quickly brushed me off saying they would love to listen to my prayer need but they are really busy with important things...revival things..."Kingdom work" and I am "dismissed". Yet on the same night this incident happened, the pastor while walkign around and making small talk stopped when i got hsi attention and he asked about the specific things i had listed in my email...not really listening to my news about how things turned out and smiled and walked away. I think my emails are being controled and deleted which isnt fair. But finally this time I re-sent the email last night and forwarded a copy of it to a friend asking him to email it for me to the church as well...not telling him about my concerns but instead just maming an excuse and saying I wanted to make sure it got there in case my emails were accidently going to spam. Guess what? The pastor just emailed me insisting I call him. Fake nice and wantign to knwo what was wrong. No jokes or misinterpretations about the fake niceness. The sad thign is...he wasn't even listening. He was concerned about whether or not I had food in the room and had everythign I needed. Also said that he couldnt guarantee anything but woudl try to see if someone could help me get to the store today and maybe get me to church. But expalined that I may have to be stranded a few more days or another week or so because the church couldn't guarantee or be responsible for my car troubles and repairs. he kept repeating this no matter how I worded it. car repair was all he could think about. I simply stated if some oen were to bring a gas can with a little gas and jump me off that it would get the car runnign again and with a little gas help...maybe filling up my car once (i havent known a full tank since early June) or even halfway, that i shoudl be fine as long as I can keep it started and maybe make a little trip to the store or a quick little drive around the motel area. I told him the car troubles could be lived with for now and woudl have to wait until I managed to bring a few paychecks in. The repair and money isnt the problem anyway. Once again, I got like stutterign confusion and silence for a moment liek he didnt understand. And then it was repeated that I would have to remain stranded...that maybe someone could help me get food for the room and maybe pick me up for church...but he couldnt guarantee anything. The church is just less than 3 minutes down the road from the motel and we are having so far 75 days of non-stop revival since june. Is it me or are people wierd in my church? Or am I maybe not being listened to or considered "confused" you know being a "wheelchair" and all...so that peopel dismiss what I say and think for me? Or are they just so "cult conditioned" they are slightly whacked and can't understand common things fo the real world?:) *shudders as church people smile and blink...gazing ahead with wierd glassy looks in their eyes*(not joking about this)
Update: Uh-oh, someone emailed me asking if I had water to drink here at the motel...and if I had power here at the motel. Yes, they said the word motel in their question....*sighs*