krazyyouth
05-15-2008, 09:48 PM
“Jesus name amen” We had just finished bible study and I had something on my mind that I was thinking should I talk to Brent and Renee tonight or just wait until Sunday after church and talk to Brent. I just didn’t know I had lots spiritual problems and pain from the past few months. I talked to him Sunday but I guess that was not enough. Let me start off the first time I had talked to Brent
“God Bless you all” It was the last Sunday in July and I had something that had been bugging me for almost a month. I thought that Brent could help me out. When he was done talking to someone else I had said “Hey Brent can I talk to you” he had said “Yeah what do you need to talk about” I had said “ Ok do you know when you clap to joyful songs” he was like “I’m not understanding what you are asking” I was like ok “ You know when you can clap to some songs in church” He said “ yes” I told him about a mouth ago before I can here the church I was going to before here the pastor told me after church if I cant keep in tune with everyone else then he said that you couldn’t clap” I was like WHAT NOW I CANT WORSHIP GOD ! I was hurt so badly also I was in tears. I had held it in until I got to the car and I was balling. I asked Brent did he think he was in the wrong by saying that to me and he said “I don’t think no-one should to say that to you or anyone” I had told him that I went back 2 weeks later and something that he was preaching was a slap in the face from God telling to pay attention Nicole. I was like ok so I did pay close attention .When church was over I went up and said can I talk to you and he said “ok” so I told him how I felt when he had told me that I couldn’t clap anymore and he said “I never told you that” I said to myself yes you did. He was telling me that if someone was singing off key and loudly he would have to tell them to quit singing. I was like ok. But inside I was not agreeing him at all. I had asked if I sit in the back could I still clap and he said very meanly “Only if you have cotton balls between your hands.” Brent had told me “Nicole you are more then welcome to clap even though you might be the only one clapping but you can clap if you want to” I had told him thank you, Before I was so scared because of that one thing that happened to me. So now I can worship, I had really appreciated him taking the time to talk with me.
August 1st, Wednesday night after bible study I was talking with Brent and Renne told him “look ok you know how after the message or the sermon when they do the recommitting thing.” He said “yes” I was like well for the past few weeks I have that strange feeling inside telling me I need to do this but I am to sacred to do my stomach was telling to do my head is saying are you really sure what you want to do this. Its like I'm to scared to go up because I’m new here and that and I’m scared what people would think of me .I was telling Brent I have NEVER turned my back against GOD. I have never been baptized and I committed when I was 7 but that’s 10 years ago. I was not the best Christian. He told me “Nicole I would love for you to come and tell the church that you Love Jesus as your Lord and Savior. Then he had given me a book to work on called survival kit for the youth. He had explained it to me before I had to leave. I was like ok and he had helped me out so much he had suggested for me to read Genesis and Acts in New Testament, and the Old Testament in the bible. I was like ok I try that out but I had told him thank you so much I really appreciated all his help and Renee’s help too.
Brent had said that’s what we’re here for. On August 5th 2007 I had forgot everything that was around me and went up and I recommitted, became a member of the church and going to be baptized. I heard Brent said “Nicole I’m so proud of you” as everyone came up and congratulated me I was like wow!
For the past couple months I have been a different person, There are things that I’m still struggling with in life but it is ok I just try my hardest to get through it. I read my bible most of the time two times a day but it wouldn’t hurt to read it more often it might be better for me spiritually or help me through the day. On September 9, 2007 I was baptized into the Body of Christ it was a small step in my walk through Christ. On that day I was happy a proud of myself. I was nervous up until two minutes I was getting baptized.
As I am walking with Christ I have notice I do have some struggles and sometimes is hard to get through it but I just try to talk it one day at a time. I have been a lot happier because i know that I can’t let anyone get me down. If I ever need help with my struggles I got the whole youth group, Brent, family and my Christian friends. That is so great for me and I have been a lot happier and most of the time in a better mode. There are things in my life later on that I will have to make sure I do make the right choice in my life.
i can tell now as it has been about six months but to me its difficult because im a teenager but im almost 18. I have been doing alot better i enjy going to church and that itsjust that its hard for me to make friends and that but i been having this teacher Guikema me and him have been talking during school after school about things church and sometims i do need help with some things it could be anything . gices me great advice and if wasnt for him it be hard for me becasue i wont have anyone to talk to that knows me and knows how much i had really changed he knows me he knew the old me and hes so proud of me.
(I wont get mad if you have to change something)
“God Bless you all” It was the last Sunday in July and I had something that had been bugging me for almost a month. I thought that Brent could help me out. When he was done talking to someone else I had said “Hey Brent can I talk to you” he had said “Yeah what do you need to talk about” I had said “ Ok do you know when you clap to joyful songs” he was like “I’m not understanding what you are asking” I was like ok “ You know when you can clap to some songs in church” He said “ yes” I told him about a mouth ago before I can here the church I was going to before here the pastor told me after church if I cant keep in tune with everyone else then he said that you couldn’t clap” I was like WHAT NOW I CANT WORSHIP GOD ! I was hurt so badly also I was in tears. I had held it in until I got to the car and I was balling. I asked Brent did he think he was in the wrong by saying that to me and he said “I don’t think no-one should to say that to you or anyone” I had told him that I went back 2 weeks later and something that he was preaching was a slap in the face from God telling to pay attention Nicole. I was like ok so I did pay close attention .When church was over I went up and said can I talk to you and he said “ok” so I told him how I felt when he had told me that I couldn’t clap anymore and he said “I never told you that” I said to myself yes you did. He was telling me that if someone was singing off key and loudly he would have to tell them to quit singing. I was like ok. But inside I was not agreeing him at all. I had asked if I sit in the back could I still clap and he said very meanly “Only if you have cotton balls between your hands.” Brent had told me “Nicole you are more then welcome to clap even though you might be the only one clapping but you can clap if you want to” I had told him thank you, Before I was so scared because of that one thing that happened to me. So now I can worship, I had really appreciated him taking the time to talk with me.
August 1st, Wednesday night after bible study I was talking with Brent and Renne told him “look ok you know how after the message or the sermon when they do the recommitting thing.” He said “yes” I was like well for the past few weeks I have that strange feeling inside telling me I need to do this but I am to sacred to do my stomach was telling to do my head is saying are you really sure what you want to do this. Its like I'm to scared to go up because I’m new here and that and I’m scared what people would think of me .I was telling Brent I have NEVER turned my back against GOD. I have never been baptized and I committed when I was 7 but that’s 10 years ago. I was not the best Christian. He told me “Nicole I would love for you to come and tell the church that you Love Jesus as your Lord and Savior. Then he had given me a book to work on called survival kit for the youth. He had explained it to me before I had to leave. I was like ok and he had helped me out so much he had suggested for me to read Genesis and Acts in New Testament, and the Old Testament in the bible. I was like ok I try that out but I had told him thank you so much I really appreciated all his help and Renee’s help too.
Brent had said that’s what we’re here for. On August 5th 2007 I had forgot everything that was around me and went up and I recommitted, became a member of the church and going to be baptized. I heard Brent said “Nicole I’m so proud of you” as everyone came up and congratulated me I was like wow!
For the past couple months I have been a different person, There are things that I’m still struggling with in life but it is ok I just try my hardest to get through it. I read my bible most of the time two times a day but it wouldn’t hurt to read it more often it might be better for me spiritually or help me through the day. On September 9, 2007 I was baptized into the Body of Christ it was a small step in my walk through Christ. On that day I was happy a proud of myself. I was nervous up until two minutes I was getting baptized.
As I am walking with Christ I have notice I do have some struggles and sometimes is hard to get through it but I just try to talk it one day at a time. I have been a lot happier because i know that I can’t let anyone get me down. If I ever need help with my struggles I got the whole youth group, Brent, family and my Christian friends. That is so great for me and I have been a lot happier and most of the time in a better mode. There are things in my life later on that I will have to make sure I do make the right choice in my life.
i can tell now as it has been about six months but to me its difficult because im a teenager but im almost 18. I have been doing alot better i enjy going to church and that itsjust that its hard for me to make friends and that but i been having this teacher Guikema me and him have been talking during school after school about things church and sometims i do need help with some things it could be anything . gices me great advice and if wasnt for him it be hard for me becasue i wont have anyone to talk to that knows me and knows how much i had really changed he knows me he knew the old me and hes so proud of me.
(I wont get mad if you have to change something)